Tuesday, July 23, 2013
Right now, this queen of avoidance would give anything to fix a problem of her heart.
How do I fight for something while I'm still waiting to figure out what it is?
My honesty has failed me so many times in the past but I can't help to just be real.
I don't know how to hold back.
A quality of admiration in others is my curse.
Maybe if I am more honest with myself it would break the spell.
But the fantasy clouds I escape to are a part of the spell.
Those clouds, my only comfort.
I know that I should take care of myself first but that's not something I think I'll ever learn how to do.
I'm a creature of habit who has only ever been able to focus my energy on worrying.
Without my strongest flaw I would be more lost than confused.
Either way, it's hard to find direction without a map or compass.